Elise laid on the bed staring at the ceiling, like nearly everything else it was painted white."I'm not crazy" she told herself. A nurse walked in with a tray.
"Honey, med time." The woman handed Elise her pills who swallowed them obediently or so it seemed. When the nurse left she pulled them out from under her tongue."I'm not crazy." She stuffed the pills inside a crack in the floor. She laid back down and buried her face in her pillow."I'm not crazy. I don't belong here. "I'm not a freak, I'm not insane as they tell me. I am angry, I was beaten, my innocence and purity was taken from me! Of course I'm angry." The tears came faster. "Of course I'm angry, Of course I'm lost. That's what makes me sane!" She whispered through her tears clenching the sheet in her fists."I'm not crazy, I'm not some freak." She looked down at her arms with scars and the crying ceased. No one understood her, She was all alone and she knew it, she wouldn't live like this. She was sick of the pills that made her feel like someone else, she was sick of the therapists pretending to care and asking question after question. She was sick of the nurses fake smiles, the doctors insisting she was crazy and something was wrong with her.. She looked at her arms then the sheet clenched in her fist then the white walls, white door and then back at the sheet. A pleased contented smile grew on her face.
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Name: Elise Mourbury. / Date of Death: May 5th, 1995. / Time of Death: Midnight A.M. Age: 15 /Cause of Death: Suicide by strangulation / Location of Death: Winston Peace Mental Home / Room: 305
Elise died on may 5th. A nurse found her with the sheet around her neck. They did everything they could to restart her heart and make her breath again but it was already to late. She was finally free of the earthen hell. At heavens gates she was welcome. Every smile was real. Ever act of caring was real. No one called her a freak. She wasn't trapped anymore. She wasn't crazy! And she said to herself "I told them I wasn't crazy. I knew I wasn't crazy. If they could see me now...they would know to...they would know to."
"Honey, med time." The woman handed Elise her pills who swallowed them obediently or so it seemed. When the nurse left she pulled them out from under her tongue."I'm not crazy." She stuffed the pills inside a crack in the floor. She laid back down and buried her face in her pillow."I'm not crazy. I don't belong here. "I'm not a freak, I'm not insane as they tell me. I am angry, I was beaten, my innocence and purity was taken from me! Of course I'm angry." The tears came faster. "Of course I'm angry, Of course I'm lost. That's what makes me sane!" She whispered through her tears clenching the sheet in her fists."I'm not crazy, I'm not some freak." She looked down at her arms with scars and the crying ceased. No one understood her, She was all alone and she knew it, she wouldn't live like this. She was sick of the pills that made her feel like someone else, she was sick of the therapists pretending to care and asking question after question. She was sick of the nurses fake smiles, the doctors insisting she was crazy and something was wrong with her.. She looked at her arms then the sheet clenched in her fist then the white walls, white door and then back at the sheet. A pleased contented smile grew on her face.
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Name: Elise Mourbury. / Date of Death: May 5th, 1995. / Time of Death: Midnight A.M. Age: 15 /Cause of Death: Suicide by strangulation / Location of Death: Winston Peace Mental Home / Room: 305
Elise died on may 5th. A nurse found her with the sheet around her neck. They did everything they could to restart her heart and make her breath again but it was already to late. She was finally free of the earthen hell. At heavens gates she was welcome. Every smile was real. Ever act of caring was real. No one called her a freak. She wasn't trapped anymore. She wasn't crazy! And she said to herself "I told them I wasn't crazy. I knew I wasn't crazy. If they could see me now...they would know to...they would know to."
I'm Not Crazy by Kaitlin Tormey is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.
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