Again

Step on the scale again

Pray the numbers low
Pull out the measuring tape again
Pray for one inch less
Count the calories again
Pray you didn't eat to much
Turn the stereo up again
Pray for the horror to stop
Bend over the toilet again
Hope it all comes up
Exercise again and again
Work off one more pound
Stand before a mirror again
Wish you had tried a little more
Stare at your reflection again
Wish you could be pretty and thin
Fall on the bed again
You pay for beauty with tears
Hurt yourself again
Pray for it all to end
Stare into the sky again
Feel the pain you hide within
Throw the food away again
You want what you cant have
Hear the voice in your head again
Scream please go away
Send a prayer to god again
You're tired of living like this
Stare at a magazine again
You don't look like them
Step on the scale again
The numbers still the same
Lock the bathroom door again
Do what the voice tells you to
Kneel down on the floor again
You don't want to be fat anymore
Face down on your pillow again
You want this nightmare to end
Pull out the journal again
Calculate the days sins
Stare at the razor on the floor again
This war you will never win
Pick up the razor again
You will make it all end

Again by Kaitlin Tormey is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.