You Kill Me From The Inside

Being with you
Kills me from the inside
And everyday
Every word you say
Pierces my soul
I have to abide
The rules of society
But I don't have to like
Don't have to support them
Keep my anger at bay
Ignore all that you say
All you hurt me with
All we could have been
Our lives unhemmed

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Parted From The Path

Parted from the path which once I walked
Found I freedom in being lost
Far from civilized society I am
Engrossed in wilderness, colored, deep.
On earths natural supplies, alone I live
Running through me, newfound pureness flows
Myself, I grow closer to each day.
Return to the path, I do not desire
Rather I stay forever lost
Where my heart and soul, nothing taints
Where inside myself freedom flourishes
Where once more simple life may be
Parted, I am, from the path which once I walked
I, here, am free and calm.

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Judge

How can we be an accurate judge of a piece of ourselves
Too long we have seen the whole of us
To look at just one part we may
But may not block all which surrounds
For we need not to see it
We know it's there
Too imposible to objectively gaze
On just one limb you see
When all along in all our lives
Such limb has been attached
and in the mirror seen so many times
We know what is attached
So we must trust anothers eyes
To judge us in parts
And leave our own sights to judge
The mirrors picture whole.

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Hiding

I'm so very frightened
That you might see
All the secrets I hold
So deep inside of me
So I've built up a wall
Using bricks made of lies
And I've created a mask
To remain in disguise
And if you catch a glimpse
Of what I hold inside
I'll act like your mistaken
I'll say it was the past
I'll continue to hide
I won't let you see the truth
I'll just create more lies
Pretend I'm perfectly fine
Stay hidden behind my disguise.

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Panic

the walls are closing in

the air is getting thin

i vomit suddenly

feel im suffocating

the room is spinning round

my head is feeling light

a flood of tears down my fave

i hear so many voices

but each seems miles away

i see figures in the distance

reach out screaming to them

but my screams are silent

i can not make a sound

my hands grip only air

the figured grow farther away

the light is almost gone

it to is sllowly fading away

darkness closes in

is this the very end? 

everything goes black

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This Isn't Me

i fear myself

what ive become

this isnt me

what have i done

 

ive lost myself

surrendured my heart

sold my soul

and fell apart

 

i fear myself

what ive become

this isnt me

what have i done

 

my thoughts, a mess

im going insane

im drowning in fear

im drowning in pain

 

what ive become

it isnt me

this isnt  what

i wanted to be

 

i used to be so strong

i usned to smile

i used to have answers

to overcoem lifes trials

 

what ive become

it isnt me

this isnt what

i wanted to be

 

now im angry

ive lost my way

scared to wake up

and face another day

 

i fear myself

what ive become

this isnt me

what have i done

 

fear and sadness

eat me inside

so i try to run

i try to hide

 

what ive become

it isnt me

this isnt what

 i wanted to be

 

i fear myself

what ive become

this inst me

what have i done?

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Deep Inside

deep inside

lies something i cant describe

it preys on fear

invades my thoughts

its voice sounds clear

inside my head

it speaks to me

tells me what i should be

talls me all my flaws

makes fun of me

and laughs as i fall

inside my head

it calls me names

accuses me

of being lame

ugly worthless

it says i am

its an illness

inside my head

telling me lies

inside my head

another lie

i deserve to die

dont want to hear

rhe words it says

dont want this here

inside my head

deep inside

lies something i cant describe

it preys on fears

invades my thoughts

its voice sounds clear

inside my head

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She Needs A Friend

she needs a friend

someone to care

someone who sees

through her constant lies

who know sjust how

to make her smile

to see her for

all that she is

and respect her

for what she is

she needs a friend

someone who can save

her from herself

someone to wipe

all her tears away

and hold her close

when shes had a bad day

someone to tell her

that she is beautiful

and really mean it

she needs a friend

someone who listens

someone she can talk to

without feeling like she needs

to hide behind more lies

someone who looks

into her green eyes

and sees through her mask

to the actual her

not fooled by her disguise

she needs a friend

to help her through

these difficult times

someone to stop her

from hurting herself

someone who wont

turn their back on her

someone who wont

constantly judge her

and bring her down

she needs a friend

who sees her flaws

and still likes her

someone whos truthful

and talks to her

when they are hurting

someone who hugs her

for no reason at all

and is cotent to talk

about nothing at all

she needs a friend

she needs some help

before shes fallen to far

to be pulled back up

before shes ruined

for all eternity

before she closes the dors

letting no one in

not even one to be her friend

she needs a friend

before she gives up

before her strength fails

she needs a friend

to save her now

before shes to far gone

she needs a friend

someone to help her stand

and hold her up

when she starts to fall

she needs a friend

who tries to understand

what shes gone through

someone with answers

to her questions

someone who wont lie

just to make her smile

someone who sees her

when she looks her worst

and smiles

she needs a friend

to cheer her on

and hold her up

as she fights hard battles

within herself

she needs a friend

and if you want to be it

make it clear

tell her your there

or she will walk away

to her loenly corner

till her death one day

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