November 03, 2010

Deep Inside

deep inside
lies something i cant describe
it preys on fear
invades my thoughts
its voice sounds clear
inside my head
it speaks to me
tells me what i should be
talls me all my flaws
makes fun of me
and laughs as i fall
inside my head
it calls me names
accuses me
of being lame
ugly worthless
it says i am
its an illness
inside my head
telling me lies
inside my head
another lie
i deserve to die
dont want to hear
rhe words it says
dont want this here
inside my head
deep inside
lies something i cant describe
it preys on fears
invades my thoughts
its voice sounds clear
inside my head

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Dark Angel

darkangel come unto me
deliver me,set me free
take me from this world, this hate
take me before it be to late
render my soul inocent
belive me insignifigant
fallen angel hear my plea
come unto and deliver me
upon thy world i am unneeded
you have seen how i am treated
with this world i am done
finaly my time has come
darkangel come unto me
deliver me,set me free
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Ana Save Me

Ana, Ana help me save me
the hunger rumbling inside me
the food is trying to tempt me
i feelmyself being tempted
please ana imso weak
lend me your strnegth
pound in my ear, ana
don't let me touch the evil
don't let me be another victom
of this temptation
it smells so sweet
please, ana, block the smell
ana! you have come
temptations slowly ading
ha! food shall never win
it is complete and pure evil
i have ana within me
se fillsme up with ease
leaving no room for you
again ana has saved me! Creative Commons License
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Just Another

Just another girl without a name
just another girl boring and plain
just another girl lost on her way
just another girl fading away

just another child shaking with fears
just another child with eyes full of tears
just another child with a pain filled heart
just another child falling apart

just another girl you dont know
just another ghost you dont see
just another child you wont remember
just another one you wont recall

just another girl standing on the corner
just another ghost that lives in no memory
just another child that knows no love
just another one whos so far gone

just another girl you dont see
shes not here anymore
that girl, that child that ghost
shes me. Creative Commons License
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Ballerina

Ballerina Ballerina
Why do tears fill up your eyes
Your beautiful
A sight to behold
Why can you not see

At lunch you push away your food
Claim not to be hungry
But I can see the hunger
Lurking in your eyes

Ballerina Ballerina
Why do tears fill up your eyes
I see you practice everyday
Till you're to weak to even stand

Your moves are already perfect
Gracefully they flow
But in your eyes they're mediocre
You cannot see your skill

Ballerina Ballerina
Why do tears fill up your eyes
Your bones show through your leotard
A dancing skeleton on stage

To early for halloween
but in the light all you can see
is a pumpkin round and grotesque

Ballerina Ballerina
Tears filling up your eyes
Your friends are begging you to eat
And still you do refuse
Condeming them to watching you
Slowly fade away Creative Commons License
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From Hell to Heaven

she sits in a corner
nobody likes her
for her each day is torture
shes waiting for an end
looking for a way out
tired of lying
tired of crying
taking the beatings
each night repeating
the game of life shes losing
pain inside is hurting
the knife her arm more cutting
watching each cut bleeding
each pill each drug shes downing
high higher shes getting
suddenly shes winning
shes bleeding hurting
out on the roof shes climbing
towards a light shes walking
shes finaly dying
walking through heavens gates
to a place where shes safe

she sat in a corner
nobody liked her
for her each day was torture
i wish id known
wish id helped her
wish id been kinder to her
wish id known her hurt
but i didnt see her hurting
didnt know inside she was dying
her arms were bleeding
or of her fathers beating
or going home alone each evning
didnt know her feelings
the drugs she was abusing
the end for her was coming
the battle she was losing
the fear and tears she was hiding
she was tired of fighting
to be good enough
and feeling she was always failing
so she gave up

shed sat in a corner
nobody had liked her
for her each day had been torture
and i hadnt known
should have helped her
should have been kinder to her
and now shes gone
her funeral casket ariving
few even bothered coming
i stand there tears streaming
i see her parents standing
but neither are crying
are they even hurting
are they as cold as the preacher praying
as there daughter in the box lying
into the ground shes sinking
the preahers words hes saying
a routine not remorsing
with her parents i am standing
but suddenly im falling
on my knees i am screaming
i know now i loved her
but its to late to tell her
to tell her someone cared

shed sat in a corner
nobody liked her
for her each day was torture
and now i know i love her
but its to late to save her
she died not knowing someone cared
i wish she was living
i wish we were hugging and kissing
i wish id saved her from her hurting
but now with god shes living
her eyes upon me watching
and im glad shes nolonger hurting
im glad that she is smiling
prehaps we'll soon be meeting
for soon i pray im leaving
never to be returning
to the heavens i am loking
every day waiting
to be with her
hold her close in my arms
give her my love

her corner is empty
im left wondering if
anyone remembers
the girl who lived in hell
until she went to heaven Creative Commons License
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November 01, 2010

Fat Butterflies Don't Fly

Butterflies are beautiful
they fly up high and free
in bright blue skies
but fat butterflies don't fly
i want to be a butterfly
to fly high and free
over all the cities and seas
but fat butterflies don't fly
butterflies are beautiful
they spread beauty wherever they fly
they put smiles on every face who sees them
but fat butterflies don't fly
i want to be a butterfly
and spread beauty wherever i go
i want to make everyone smiles
but fat butterflies don't fly
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War

Every war has sacrifice
I sacrifice nourishment
Every war has death
Death may come to me
Every war has battles
Mine rage on every moment of the day
Every war has pain
I feel it in my stomach
Every war must end
Mine will end when I depart
Every war destroys
My life testifies to such
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If I Were

If I were the Rain
I'd wash your face each day and night


If I were Lightning
I'd strike your enemies one by one


If I were Thunder
I'd wake you at danger


If I were a Tree
I'd shelter you from the merciless storm


If I were the Grass
I'd provide a soft place for you to rest


If I were the Clouds
I'd cushion your head when you were injured


If I were the Wind
I'd dry your quiet tears


If I were the Dark
I'd hide you from evil


If I were the Light
I'd show you your path, your friends, and your enemies


If I were a Storm
I'd make sure you know I love you. Creative Commons License
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Winter Morning

The way the morning light shines
on the frosted grass fields
so they glitter and sparkle
this cold winter morning


the way the snow falls
on streets and buildings
and melts on my skin
this white winter morning


the way the air smells
of fires and wintergreen
lifting, enlightening my senses
this sweet winter morning. Creative Commons License
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The Kiss

His eyes shone into the night,
his arms-wrapped around me
his warmth radiated off his skin
his breath white in the cold air-
he smiles down at me-
and I look up at him
with cat like eyes
then rest my head
upon his warm chest.
I listen and I hear
his kind sweet heart
beating a strong beat.
my lips form a soft smile
I look back up into his eyes
"I love you" I say
"I love you too" he replies
his lips-brush mine-softly
we kiss lovingly. Creative Commons License
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